# 7 - Goals =)

They say good things come to those who wait. But waiting alone is not enough. Good things do not come to those who wait. Good things come to those who pursue the goals and dreams they believe in. Dreams and goals. Something that is what I love to talk about.  I have so many dreams. I live my life, believing that dreaming can give me happiness. Executing the dreams with goals in life will make me satisfied. But life is not like a bed of roses. Sometimes it feels like too good to be true, and sometimes it feels like between the devil and the deep sea, having dangers in between. 

Pangkor Island, Early 2012

Different people have different aim. My goal is different from yours. Some of us may aim high, some may not. The previous me would always aim high because I do not believe in biasa-biasa. To be good, you must aim high. But as time goes by, when some tragedies occurred, I know that aiming too high will make you fall into pieces if it is not done according to the actual plan. Sometimes, perfect for others does not mean it is perfect for you.  Sometimes, things that have most flaws will suit you best. Why? Because you know in any way, you can resist the flaws. While the so-called-perfect, once broken considered sold. 

The Typewriter,

-anis-

# 6 - Love =)

What really happened may not have a happy ending, but love just doesn’t happen to girl like me. Girls who built their hopes on an intricate web of daydreams.  The truth is that everyone has issues, and maybe building up a fake perfect man in my mind is my biggest issue of all. I’ve been walking around with the ghost of my magic man. He is been haunting me, keeping me from recognizing a world of opportunities that were right in front of me. My anger at him eventually faded away. 

Maulidur Rasul Celebration Day, 2012

After all, he just was giving me what I wanted. Every lovesick girl’s fantasy. An idealised version of what I imagined love should look like. But there is no such thing as perfection. Love is for the people who are realistic and smart enough to open their hearts and minds, and who realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy. I haven’t found out relationship yet, but I’ve shaken off the shadow of my magic man and I’m finding myself. I think that is a pretty good starts. 

                                                                                                                             The Typewriter,

                                                                                                                                                   -anis-

# 5 – Confide =)

Sometimes we forget that we should not talk just for the sake of talking. We should not to listen just for the sake of listening. But we are actually looking for solution. Looking for a compromise. We express ourselves, our feelings and our wishes to be understood. 

Port Dickson, 2011

When we fail to utter word we need somebody else to help us. We need somebody to understand our troubles. So we keep on searching with a high hope the person whom who we have lost. Without realizing it, we have actually found someone to fill the emptiness and someone we can confide in. 

The Typewriter,

-anis-

# 4 - Escapes =)

Restricted, controlled and trapped. We look for a way to escape from the crisis and problems which follow us wherever we go. We can’t run away but we have to be brave. 

Ceria Bogak Beach Camp Pangkor, February 2012

We have to be strong to find ways to look for our freedom. In the end, the space makes us careless and forgetful. Forcing us to think. Burden us. And free us. Suffocate and stifle us. 

The Typewriter,

-anis-

# 3 - Inevitable =)

As written in the letters I receive from friends who are near and far, we move from one place to another, bringing along sweet memories and hopes which we want to share. Like a very small spot of dust blowing in the wind. We search for certainties and direction of our future. We carry the burden and the bad experience which we want to leave behind, old stories which we want to forget. 

Casa Rachado Port Dickson, 2011

Clinging to hopes, to start a new life. One day we will realize that making a mistake is part of growing up. Whether we like it or not, we have to make our choice and face all the obstacles in continuing this inevitable journey. A journey which will take us to a new place and which will take us home. 

The Typewriter,

-anis-

# 2 - Friends =)

Everybody needs friends. People whom we communicate with. But who can we consider as friends? Friends who we spend time at coffee shop. Friends whom we work with. Friends whom we hang out with. School friends or our childhood friends. There is no prejudice, no difference and no competition. Until one day when we open up our eyes and we realize that the world is not as it seems. 

Social Studies Exhibition Day, October 2011

It’s not a problem to make friends nowadays. We don’t have to leave our homes and we don’t even have to leave our seats. We just need to sit in front of the computer and hit some key on the keyboards. We have some things in common. It does not matter if we don’t agree on things. It does not matter if we don’t know each other. We have to accept the risk as friendship is one journey which is full of uncertainties. We continue the journey in our search for friends and companions to fill the emptiness without realizing that they are right in front of us. Waiting for us to find each other. Only time can tell the direction of a friendship.

The Typewriter,

-anis-

#1 - Serenity =)

When we realize that the world we built is either fragile or is breaking down we try as much as we can to stay strong. As that is the only thing which we can do. We know the journey to make us grow up is not an easy one. The relationship is getting more difficult. The body which works hard is getting tired. The heart which we hope will soften hardened even more. 

Taman Tasik Permaisuri, late 2011

And the loneliness in our heart makes us want to achieve happiness and perfection. We are aware and know that we must be brave to free ourselves. Brave enough to forget our previous memories and to look for serenity. But we have to go through our life one step at a time. We keep on fighting ourselves and face the burdens that come our way. We can only prepare ourselves and wait for the opportunities and seize back what we have lost.  

                                                                                 The typewriter,

-anis-