Wednesday, May 30, 2012

# 8 - A boy =)


Every girl needs a man. You know the kind that’ll treat you right. The kind that has enough respect for you and is willing to change, just to be with you. The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already. He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep. This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favourite kind of candy. 



Nur Lembah Pangsun, Hulu Langat



He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most. The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he’s out with his friend, to just  tell you that he loves & misses you a lot. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”. The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you’re falling behind, and opens doors for you. 



Cultural Night, Bina Insan Guru



The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you and that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down, tells you to be strong and to not cry, and when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard. The kind that will go through thick and thin with and for you. The kind that just loves you for who you are and not for who you aren’t and loves you because you’re his favourite girl in the whole wide world.


The Typewriter,
-Anis-

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

# 7 - Goals =)




They say good things come to those who wait. But waiting alone is not enough. Good things do not come to those who wait. Good things come to those who pursue the goals and dreams they believe in. Dreams and goals. Something that is what I love to talk about.  I have so many dreams. I live my life, believing that dreaming can give me happiness. Executing the dreams with goals in life will make me satisfied. But life is not like a bed of roses. Sometimes it feels like too good to be true, and sometimes it feels like between the devil and the deep sea, having dangers in between. 


Pangkor Island, Early 2012



Different people have different aim. My goal is different from yours. Some of us may aim high, some may not. The previous me would always aim high because I do not believe in biasa-biasa. To be good, you must aim high. But as time goes by, when some tragedies occurred, I know that aiming too high will make you fall into pieces if it is not done according to the actual plan. Sometimes, perfect for others does not mean it is perfect for you.  Sometimes, things that have most flaws will suit you best. Why? Because you know in any way, you can resist the flaws. While the so-called-perfect, once broken considered sold. 



The Typewriter,
-anis-



Sunday, May 20, 2012

# 6 - Love =)




What really happened may not have a happy ending, but love just doesn’t happen to girl like me. Girls who built their hopes on an intricate web of daydreams.  The truth is that everyone has issues, and maybe building up a fake perfect man in my mind is my biggest issue of all. I’ve been walking around with the ghost of my magic man. He is been haunting me, keeping me from recognizing a world of opportunities that were right in front of me. My anger at him eventually faded away. 


Maulidur Rasul Celebration Day, 2012


After all, he just was giving me what I wanted. Every lovesick girl’s fantasy. An idealised version of what I imagined love should look like. But there is no such thing as perfection. Love is for the people who are realistic and smart enough to open their hearts and minds, and who realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy. I haven’t found out relationship yet, but I’ve shaken off the shadow of my magic man and I’m finding myself. I think that is a pretty good starts. 


                                                                                                                             The Typewriter,
                                                                                                                                                   -anis-