# 6 - Love =)

What really happened may not have a happy ending, but love just doesn’t happen to girl like me. Girls who built their hopes on an intricate web of daydreams.  The truth is that everyone has issues, and maybe building up a fake perfect man in my mind is my biggest issue of all. I’ve been walking around with the ghost of my magic man. He is been haunting me, keeping me from recognizing a world of opportunities that were right in front of me. My anger at him eventually faded away. 

Maulidur Rasul Celebration Day, 2012

After all, he just was giving me what I wanted. Every lovesick girl’s fantasy. An idealised version of what I imagined love should look like. But there is no such thing as perfection. Love is for the people who are realistic and smart enough to open their hearts and minds, and who realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy. I haven’t found out relationship yet, but I’ve shaken off the shadow of my magic man and I’m finding myself. I think that is a pretty good starts. 

                                                                                                                             The Typewriter,

                                                                                                                                                   -anis-