#28 - A gift

Assalammualaikum and Hi.

This gift will last forever. This gift will never let you down. Some things are made from better stuff. This gift is waiting to be found. Your heart’s in wide receiving. Been too long buried in the sand. Some things require leaving. This gift will fall right in your hand. Just try to understand.If you long enough and you don’t give up.

Class event, Port Dickson, Oct 2013

If you’re strong enough and you don’t give up. And you will be no harbour to the sorrow. Just let it go.Don’t hang your head in sorrow. Don’t give up just before you win. Don’t wait around for tomorrow. Open up your arms and let it in. Just you believe it now.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 27 - Point of View

Assalammualaikum and Hi.

I think that when a girl really loves someone, she will love him very dearly. Every flaw and every fault that he has, she’d still love him. And you can see that she’s strong by his side. 

Aizuddin & Debbie, Sarawak, August 2013

And if the boy loves someone so dearly, he will never leave her. He’ll make sure that his girl gets everything she need, even if it’s not him that she wants.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

#26 - The Pain

 

Assalamualaikum,

Humans are not perfect. They will never be perfect. We make mistakes. I don't need to mention that do I, cause I bet all of you have already know that. Everybody has their own weaknesses, their own flaws. EVERYBODY. No exception whatsoever. You hurt people, you get hurt. That's life. What is life without bittersweet stuff that happens? What is life if we don't make mistakes and learn from it? 

Adam Adli Azalea, somewhere on the road, June 2013

Allah SWT gave us all these obstacles and stuff for a reason. That's why you keep on hearing people say that one corny phrase that goes "Things Happens for a Reason". Corny aye? I know. But it's true. Like I've said earlier, Allah has better plans for us. Take it as an experience and a boost into doing something new. Be a better person. 

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 25 - Teacher's Appreciation Day.

Teacher's Appreciation Day. I still look forward to May 16th. A few years back, during my schooling years, the first week of May is filled with chitter chatter on what to get our beloved teachers. Every year, without fail I will write down a pretty long list of teachers I admire and putting the limited budget I have to good use.

I will spend a little extra from my pocket money for something more unique in Living Cabins. Then, a day before , I scrambled around to find wrapping paper (thank God I have my sister!) and scribbled in tiny words their awesome names. The look on the teacher’s face when you hand them the gifts and the way their face lights up when you wish them Happy Teacher’s Day, it is an incredible feeling you just can’t put into words.

Cluster School,Terengganu, 2012

There will be performances and competitions in that small hall. They act, they sing, and they dance. The moment you see Mr Strict-Sour-Face that you have an aversion to, dancing stiffly or singing off-pitch, that’s the funniest bit where you end up giggling like baboons with your group of friends. Ahhhh… those were the days. Let Allah repay for all the good deed for you, dear teachers. Other than that, a simple thank you is more than enough.

Be that as it may, I want to wish all the teachers and lecturers alike my Mak, late Abah and sibling who teach me a never ending lesson regarding life. My kindergarten teachers who taught me ABC, my elementary school teachers who taught me the multiplication times table, the high school teacher who spent sleepless nights marking our homework as well as my college lecturers who showed me the real world a Happy Teacher’s Day.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 24 - Working Hard and True Spirit

Assalamualaikum.

We all have that moment when we feel like giving up. For a reason of course. Even I go through that kind of feeling. Every single day. People are trying to bring you down every second in your life. But just bear in mind, always keep your head up. Always try again. Get back up when you fall. It hurts, yeah. I know. But giving up won't lead you anywhere. Snap out of it. 

3rd SBE, SK KGV, March 2013

Try again and again and again till you succeed. Work harder every time you fail. Cry if it's necessary but always wipe the tears when you're done. Take it as a lesson. You get scolded doesn't mean you suck at what you do. It's a sign that you need to work harder. Quit being a slacker. Getting what you want are not that easy. Life doesn't work that way. So, buckle up and don’t give up.

Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 23 - To Stay or Not To Stay?

 

I've re-writing this post over and over again trying to write something worth reading. And until now, nothing is worth reading. *sigh*.

Something worth reading.

Exes. Past relationships. Memories. Regrets. Everybody has them. Including myself. Generally, there's always that somebody that you'll always remember, that you'll always love, even if it’s over. Even if he/she is not yours anymore. Always. Your first love maybe, high school sweetheart maybe. Who knows but there's always THAT somebody. 

Random Picture, Permaisuri Lake, 2012

The question now is, is it a good thing to hold on to the past? How do you move on if you still hold in to it? For how long? Forever? Your future relationship ain't gonna work if you still hold on to the past. You can't. It’s not now it works. You need to focus on one person and one person only. Never start a relationship if you're still hooked on somebody else. It’s just wrong. So wrong. Never give a false hope. Never. It’s not right. It hurts. Sometimes you just have to let go of something so dear to you to gain something more precious. But, we can only plan but Allah SWT handles it for us. And it’s for the better. Everything that has happens to you in your life has a reason. If it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be but you can't force it to be. Haha. Get what I mean?

I guess it’s time for me to HEAD OUT since I'm starting to write something out of context. Haha. Till next time. :)

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 22 - Oh No.

 

Assalamualaikum.

I AM STRESSED OUT AND TIRED. Haha. Have you ever heard the malay saying that goes like " Kalau badan dah gemuk, maknanya bahagia.", I thought I got fat because of happiness. Then lately I realized that I've been consuming too much food. Unnecessary food that is. Junk food, chocolates, Ice cream and stuff. I'm gaining weight. 

Chubby Cheek, IPTech

Gaining it fast! No funny matter. I tend to crave for sweet stuff when I'm mad or upset or sad or tired even. I just don't know why. I don't think It's healthy for me. Heck, I don't think it’s healthy for anyone. It's becoming an issue to me. And it scares me for some reason. I don't want to fall sick. Nobody wants to fall sick.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 21 - I never care. I never was.

Maybe it's true. Maybe not. When people said that "Your words might define who you are". How do I suppose to believe that rumour whereas I'd live in a world that full of lies and hypocrites? If I ask this question to anyone, I know they don't have any ideas to answer it. No matter how I've tried to be such a good girl, people still judge me. People won't satisfied with me at all as long as they still don’t know the wholly about me. People going to say that, say this and bla bla bla. There's a time which I can't be myself although I don't want to and I have to. Especially when nowadays I've been exposed to various kinds of people. It was tough for me to resist such a lot of influences. Although most of them were my friends, I won't be such a dumb girl as I've to follow every single word that has been said by them. 

Random me at random place, 2011

Sometimes, silent are the best policy for me. I've been through a lot of tough moments. Yes, I'd love to make mistakes which is I'll learn from it to educate myself and be ready to face the real world. I’m twenty. And now I knew that world is not too beautiful as much as my imagination did. Thing is, it's better for you to be a good listener than be such a sweet talker. You didn't realize what have you said and from that people will simply label you as what they want too. So, beware. But, when people have labelled me, like anything, their thoughts about me, all I want to say is I never care. I never was.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 20 - Deep Inside

Assalammualaikum. 

Do you have a crush? Or maybe just someone you like? But deep down inside, you know you can't have him/her for a reason even you, yourself can't explain. Maybe you're scared that he/she might not have the same feeling as you do. You're scared he/she might turn you down or worst, they have feelings for someone else. Well, that's my reason. I'm afraid I might be alone in this. I'm afraid he might not feel the same way. Haha. Come on, look at me. An ugly face with full of personality. *sigh*. Pathetic. I know.

Selca, Iptech 2012

Well, that's just how life goes. You can't always get what you want. Maybe one day you'll eventually get what you need. InsyaAllah. But on the girly part of me wishes he feels the same way. I mean pssk. Who wouldn't want that?! Haha. That would be really great if it happens. But, for the time being, day-dreaming is the best way to handle all this crap. Hehee.

The Typewriter,

-Anis-

# 19 - Brand New Life

Assalammualaikum

Hello this is my first post in 2013. Yehaaa!

As time goes by, I may have realised that sometimes you just got to point at yourself. Knowing that you're the reason everything went wrong. Understand that you are the one to blame. Because that's just how it is. Nobody can't make your mistakes but you. You, yourself makes those mistakes. I made my mistakes. Still do, like now. Not appreciating what's supposed to be appreciated. Not loving the ones who love me. Cause I'm just human. Who am I to be perfect? Who am I to not make mistakes?

New campus, Bandar Enstek, Jan 2013

Thus I set up a new resolution for new year aspirations. I have thought that there a few thing that I want to achieve. Do I need to write it here? Hehee a big no I reckon. Let me keep it to myself. Have you ever heard that people say that sometimes we have to keep something to ourself and not gonna share it with anyone else. So there you go, I'm keeping it to myself now. Oh yaah, I don't really have a plan for this but what I know it's time for me to laugh and enjoy life again. 

New campus, Bandar Enstek, Jan 2013

Not to forget, I have registered for a new semester. I'm now in semester three of degree year. It's not so long away to go before I graduate. As for new semester start, I got almost everything new. New room mate who is also one of my close friend, new comfortable classroom and the most obvious one is I get the opportunity to study in new campus. It's located in the rural area. Nothing much I can do here, but I like this place. Full of peace and privacy. Most important, it's not so far from my house. (Approx 20 min of driving). All the thing that I hope for is I hope that my life going to be well and smooth here with my lecture classes, friends and new environment. So that's it. And I will be writing again, some day. 

The Typewriter,

-Anis-